[ naomi's never thought of herself as the selfish type. hungry, yes, for the world, for truth -- but that's different from selfishness.
but she's afraid that it's selfishness that tugs at her now, when she looks at him and feels like he is slipping from her fingers quicker than sand. there's a part of her that thinks: what if they never left the wall, what if she hadn't fought him over the hesitation to stay or go, hadn't taken his face between her palms and reminded him that no matter how far he thought he'd fallen, he had always been a hero. ]
You have all of this, [ she gestures up and around, but she means more than the room -- she means the corps, all those people who look at him and know all too well the depth of his legacy. who see what she did when others did not.
these are difficult things to say, but she says them anyway because if nothing else, they've always had honesty between them. ] You have Gipsy, and you have Mako and I have no place in that.
[ it hits her then, like a truck going at full speed on a highway: she is in love with raleigh becket. has been, since that first night they'd fallen into each other in her bed, perhaps further back when they'd reconnected as hesitant friends.
she breathes out a soft Oh God, and leans over, a hand covering her mouth. ]
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but she's afraid that it's selfishness that tugs at her now, when she looks at him and feels like he is slipping from her fingers quicker than sand. there's a part of her that thinks: what if they never left the wall, what if she hadn't fought him over the hesitation to stay or go, hadn't taken his face between her palms and reminded him that no matter how far he thought he'd fallen, he had always been a hero. ]
You have all of this, [ she gestures up and around, but she means more than the room -- she means the corps, all those people who look at him and know all too well the depth of his legacy. who see what she did when others did not.
these are difficult things to say, but she says them anyway because if nothing else, they've always had honesty between them. ] You have Gipsy, and you have Mako and I have no place in that.
[ it hits her then, like a truck going at full speed on a highway: she is in love with raleigh becket. has been, since that first night they'd fallen into each other in her bed, perhaps further back when they'd reconnected as hesitant friends.
she breathes out a soft Oh God, and leans over, a hand covering her mouth. ]