[ it's a valid question. and he doesn't mean to belittle it, but he can't help the ghost of a smile that crosses his face. ]

We're here because I want you now. [ raleigh rests his hand on her thigh and lets his fingers lightly trace patterns on the inside of it. ]

I wanted you back then, too. [ which begs the question of whether yancy wanted her because of raleigh or not. but yancy is dead and he's taken the answer to that question to the grave with him. ] We fought about it, you know. Him sleeping with you. It nearly got us kicked out of the program. [ because if you can't be in balance with you co-pilot, you're shit out of luck. there may have been rules and regulations about brawling with your fellow cadets, but everyone knew that was the crux of the issue.

he leans in and rests his forehead against hers, rolling his thoughts over and over in his head while he tries to figure out if there's really anything he needs to get out while they're having this little confessional. all he can come up with is: ] I'm sorry I saw what I did how I did. [ it was an invasion of her privacy, really. ]