[There is something on her mind, and once more Eun falls quiet, occupying her hands by stroking Asil's shoulders and chest as she finds her words again.]
Aside for a handful of Mason's wolves, none of the members of his pack have exceeded a normal human lifespan. Being here, interacting with not just you but the other older wolves of Bran's pack, it's made me wonder a little more about how the view of age and maturity might shift with longer lifespans. As someone who is still in her twenties, I can't even begin to theorize what the perspective of someone who is not just decades older, but centuries, would be. Especially taking into account that our bodies do not age, and yet on the other side we can also accumulate so much more experience and knowledge...
[She trails off, brows furrowing briefly with thought as she grapples with the complicated concept she's trying to discuss. Her own subjective view point, formed from her own experiences and impressions, makes it impossible to put herself in the shoes of someone whose views she cannot even begin to fathom. There is too much that would affect their own perspective, which she is trying to understand.]
I'm not used to worrying about what other people think because I've lived my life among peers who were all around the same stage of life as I am. But moving here would change that drastically and I don't want to be seen as silly or immature for wanting to put together something like a bad movie night, or occasionally building an elaborate blanket fort in the living room, or anything else like that. I feel like my relative youth and the fact that I have a world of experiences ahead of me could be a strength here, but I can't help but wonder if those very same things could put others off, or lead to them not taking me seriously.
[Eun pauses again, and while she had intended to stop there and let Asil respond to her on that count first, she cannot hold in other thoughts she had. The ones that are relevant to them and them alone.]
Not only that, but I told you weeks ago that your age does not bother me, and that is still true. But after this morning, even parts of last night just after the hunt...I can't help but feel embarrassed by some of my reactions, especially the ones that seemed especially over-dramatic. I would hate it if my inexperience was in any way became a burden to you. You've loved. You've had a mate, and children. I don't doubt your patience, or the fact that you care for me, or your willingness to share the wealth of your own experience with me on many subjects...but in this I can't help but wonder if the possible issue was never if you're too old for me, but if I am in fact too young for you.
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Aside for a handful of Mason's wolves, none of the members of his pack have exceeded a normal human lifespan. Being here, interacting with not just you but the other older wolves of Bran's pack, it's made me wonder a little more about how the view of age and maturity might shift with longer lifespans. As someone who is still in her twenties, I can't even begin to theorize what the perspective of someone who is not just decades older, but centuries, would be. Especially taking into account that our bodies do not age, and yet on the other side we can also accumulate so much more experience and knowledge...
[She trails off, brows furrowing briefly with thought as she grapples with the complicated concept she's trying to discuss. Her own subjective view point, formed from her own experiences and impressions, makes it impossible to put herself in the shoes of someone whose views she cannot even begin to fathom. There is too much that would affect their own perspective, which she is trying to understand.]
I'm not used to worrying about what other people think because I've lived my life among peers who were all around the same stage of life as I am. But moving here would change that drastically and I don't want to be seen as silly or immature for wanting to put together something like a bad movie night, or occasionally building an elaborate blanket fort in the living room, or anything else like that. I feel like my relative youth and the fact that I have a world of experiences ahead of me could be a strength here, but I can't help but wonder if those very same things could put others off, or lead to them not taking me seriously.
[Eun pauses again, and while she had intended to stop there and let Asil respond to her on that count first, she cannot hold in other thoughts she had. The ones that are relevant to them and them alone.]
Not only that, but I told you weeks ago that your age does not bother me, and that is still true. But after this morning, even parts of last night just after the hunt...I can't help but feel embarrassed by some of my reactions, especially the ones that seemed especially over-dramatic. I would hate it if my inexperience was in any way became a burden to you. You've loved. You've had a mate, and children. I don't doubt your patience, or the fact that you care for me, or your willingness to share the wealth of your own experience with me on many subjects...but in this I can't help but wonder if the possible issue was never if you're too old for me, but if I am in fact too young for you.